Saturday, April 17, 2010

April Thoughts

"I prayed to the LORD and he answered me. He freed me from all my fears. Those who look to Him for help will be radiant with joy, no shadow of shame will darken their faces. In my desperation I prayed, and the LORD listened; he saved me from all my troubles: For the angel of the LORD is a guard; he surrounds and defends all who fear him. Taste and see that the LORD is good. Oh the the joys of those who take refuge in him!" Psalm 34:4-8
The other day I had been praying, begging GOD to do something deeper in my life...begging him to free me, to show me more of him and all of the sudden Ps. 36 crossed my mind, so I looked it up...it didn't really have much to do with what I'd been praying about...and then I looked across the page and these words just jumped out at me. It was as if Jesus whispered into my heart at that moment and said; "My little girl I've heard your prayers, I've seen you tears and I am here. I've answered you prayers and I will wipe away your tears. I love you!"
I am amazed everyday at the extent of His never ending love and grace.
I feel as though He has taken a shovel and trimmers and been digging and cutting things out of my life....its been so painful, but refreshing!!
I will say that He is becoming the LOVE of my life. I wish I could say that He was already, but I'm learning that that comes with complete abandonment of self. Complete worship and adoration to Him. That, I'm afraid I am still learning. But I'm willing to keep going until He is that total, unreserved LOVER of my soul.